I don't know what to do

I don't know what to do today. If I do nothing is that OK? Am I wasting my life. What is the purpose of my life. Can I come to terms with....there was no purpose to my life. I just became. I now am. I will leave.

Why did I have a family. Because I did not want to be alone. Why did I not want to be alone? Because I am a hermit. Without a family, I would spend my weekends in an apartment staring out the window. I would walk the streets anonymously. There is nothing exciting about me.

Do we have to have purpose in order to have lived a valid life?

With so much suffering in the world, how many people would beg to be in my position?

I think a lot.