I am being lazy

Its like I have given up on myself, on my family on my happiness. I am throwing it away because I get tons of vacation at a stable large company. I have a fast commute to work. I have tenure. I have experience at the company. I can leave early to Darryl's birthday. I can leave to go workout (got to get better at this). I make a salary that I won't starve on. I make a salary where I will have a retirement where i will not starve.

What do I hate. I hate the person I am forced to work with, Snake. She is killing me at every opportunity she gets. She is desparate.

So I should ignore her and go around her. It is impossible. She monitors everything. My manager wants m to work with her. She doesn't do anything, so it is a nightmare.

Why not just be pleasant and accept life. I don't think I am capable of it. It is not in my nature to sit and be calm. It is in my nature to reach for the stars and throw myself at more challenging and challenging positions. Not to sit in the same spot for 5 years and deal with the same person.

Why can't it be in my nature? I have no idea. I have watched what has happened to people that have worked with her. Not good things.