Growing anxiety

Went for a walk today. I am really stressed out. It has been 2 and 1/2 months since the vendor was walked off site. They don't seem to be able to get their act together but they want to come back on site.

I went to talk to my manager about me taking over the migration. Just screw the vendor. He wants to talk about it with my two piers on Monday. I am nervous that he has lost faith in me.

I believe in myself. I just don't believe in other people. Other people suck. They really do.

Great attitude but you can't count on others. I can always count on me and people can count on me.

I need to find happiness from within. I think being totally physically fit would make me happy. If I looked incredible that would make me happy. I would have self respect.