Happiness is a by-product

Happiness is always a by-product. It is probably a matter of temperament, and for anything I know it may be glandular. But it is not something that can be demanded from life, and if you are not happy you had better stop worrying about it and see what treasures you can pluck from your own brand of unhappiness.
- Robertson Davies

Great happiness is a byproduct. A by-product of what? What possible event in my current life could I be happy about? My overall situation is fine.

- Survivable salary
- Isadora can stay home with Darryl
- Nice house
- Nice SUV
- Isadora and Darryl are happy
- I am competent at my job

I want to be happy all the time. Don't tell me it is biology. I want to be happy with my situation. Deep down I know it is very good on the grand scale of life.

Maybe I have spent so long chasing the future that I have never enjoyed the present and therefore regret having not taken advantage of the past.

I want a happy temperament.

Some asshole won the lottery. Take home: $23 million. The one time I don't buy a ticket. Damn it!

I am happy.