Today is the day of hell

Today, we have a meeting to discuss the project going forward. No one is saying anything to each other. Everyone is saving it for the meeting.

I have done everything I can. I am just going to let the cards fall where they may.

Getting worked up about it has never served me well.

Being passive, probably creates peace.

When I was worked up about it, I would let everyone know my hand. Therefore, everyone could come to the meeting with counter positions.

This way no one knows how I feel and what my beliefs are.

Well..they do, because we already sat down and had a meeting. This meeting we will discuss with our manager. More concrete decisions will be made.

Do I need to stay here? Do I need to go? I like it here. I have been to other companies. I need to learn to exist and work within a corporation. Life is pretty unpredictable on the outside. I didn't enjoy it very much.

I need to be happy and enjoy what I have. I have a lot. More so than the Palestinian man rushing his dying child to the hospital. Always funny how they talk about how many enemies were killed. Never about the civilians. Never about the children.

Message to the world: There are so many places in the world. If you don't like it...get up and leave. You can always rebuild home.

Maybe it is harder than I think. I did it. But that might not be true for everyone else.

Just too much going on in this world right now. Boy, did the bar ever get set low for Obama.

Be happy Jeff. This is your only life. You have a wife and son that love you and who are wonderful. You financially well off. You need to work on your health.

Be happy Jeff.