Victories and defeats

Today was a day of victories and defeats. Well it is just a day of bullshit. Man....Snake can just make my day miserable. I have had to close my door and walk away three times today to calm down. I got through a problem that was plaguing this project.

Oh well.

If you notice that I am not writing my daily mantra. Quite frankly I would be hypocritical at this point to type it.

I just want to win the lottery and walk away.

I think I will just get up...leave my computer running. Transfer my 401K to Fidelity and begone. I would not answer my phone for a week. Maybe just take a week vacation in Puerto Rico or Washington DC. I think going through the Smithsonian and all those monuments would clear my head. I bet they have great restaurants in Washington with all those lobbyists. This is so unbearable.

I need to make my life what I want it to be. It is like I enjoy being miserable. What would make me happy? Me happy. Being able to walk away. Being able to have enough money to spend my days at the country club. To spend my days getting on a plane to some destination with Isadora and Darryl. Spend my days working on junior sports teams and leagues.